December 2025
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December 2025
I was groomed in After the Flash.
Hello, it's currently the lasts days of 2025 in this timezone, its really somber and its happy but i just can't get this feeling off, being groomed is an ass.
I was in a roleplaying game called "After The Flash" i know its a roblox game but i enjoyed it, its even my favourite game of 2020 until i met "Franciasgrace" she's gone by now deleted her and shit.
Francaisgrace or what i call her by "Leze" was probably one of the most human person i've ever met she had her ups and downs but our relationship was so fucked up.
I didn't like how she was outright mean or rude or just an ass sometimes and everyone just excuses it or blames me for it at times calls me for it and they never questio
Physically and mentally tired for a long time.
I just want to enjoy life but im so tired for a long long long time. I try to enjoy things yet i dont enjoy it. I wonder why am I alive sometimes....no... I wonder why I was born.
I’m inhuman so ugly I’m not part of earth
most of my friends are getting asked out, guys sliding into their DMs or just simply getting compliments from total strangers on the street while I only get to listen to their stories and wonder when will it be my turn :') I feel so ugly right now I could totally rip my face off
I've always felt pretty, or at the very least not hideously bad looking. But I'm having second thoughts, maybe I'm absolutely delusional and have overestimated how I look? I can see every flaw right now, especially my brows and my eyes. My mom is really straight forward and honest with her words, and I haven't heard her say that I look pretty in a long time. On the contrary, she's been complimenting my friends, s
I’m probably going to hell
So yeah, I think this is it. I’ve tried to ‘hang in there’ but it’s not worth it anymore. It’s the same shit every day. I know I should just stop procrastinating and end it all right now but I guess I like venting. There really is no hope is there? I know God is gonna throw me in hell after tonight but I guess that’s just life. It was never meant for me
PLURIBUS episode 9 is OUT!!!!!!
episode 9 is out, love this show
Crying over an ebay bid
Lost ebay auction so sad weeping it’ll never be mine
life is so fucking over
i wish i didnt fail my fucking suicide attempt when i was 10 maybe my parents would take me fucking serious for once but no now im a coward because if i attempt i might fail again or end up worse. i have no friends, i have no one talk to, no meaningful connections. people see me as this friendly, impulsive person but i got no fucking friends at all. i'm "fun" to be around but apparently no one cares for that and would ditch me in a heartbeat. i'm not on bad terms with anyone but people never just see me as a friend or take me seriously at all. i'm so Fucking pissed off. i'm not even a shy person that let people walk over me. so i dont get why people treat me like this maybe i just gotta fuck
I need to kill myself
Country and world suck ass + autistic + ocd + frequent panic attacks + abusive family + can't afford therapy and I'm pretty sure it wouldn't even work + ghosted my online friends because I didn't want to burden them with my problems and as far as I can tell they are doing well without me + AI is poisoning the world + climate change = killing myself is the better option
All I think about is suicide
I’m 17 gonna be 18 in 4 months and all I think about is suicide. I feel completely invisible to people mainly women because of how hideously ugly I am. I’ve only been in one relationship and it was an online relationship she completely mentally tortured me for about a year. I have a permanent scar on my finger because it got sliced open accidentally by trying to take a razor blade out of a razor because we were going to self harm together. She forced me to squeeze the blood put it on my cock and jerk off I was 16 she was 20. She forced me to finger my asshole and show her videos if I didn’t she made me feel badly about it. Long story short she ruined my fucking life and I will never fucking
I am unable to live a normal life
I hate everything, this system is a plot to make us as miserable possible. I just turned 18 and look at the shit that's happening, we will soon experience multiple financial crisis. I should have killed myself 3 years ago but I foolishly thought "Oh maybe it will get better.." no it will not. Hell I wish I was brave enough to jump out of the window.
trying to plan suicide
i feel like i seriously cant go on much longer but id feel like a piece of shit if i just fucking did it and left my parents and family to suffer, i want to at least try to die somewhat happy. i dont know how to do that though, i bearly have enough money to pay for any funeral costs or give compensation when im gone, i cant think of anything to do to try and make my last tolerable let alone enjoyable, and idk how im supposed to die without it being painful as fuck. i always thought some combo of xans, alchohol and heroin would work great by knocking me out and everything so that i wouldnt have to wake up but apparently its inconsistent or painful as shit and whatever. fucking bullshit
I don't like Christmas
I really dislike Christmas, not bc of the meaning or anything like that. I lost my mom at 12 and my dad at 17, been on my own since. I'm 20 now, and it's really hard to stay above water with no parents, and very little support from either sides of my family. It's like once my parents died, I didn't have anything attaching me to the others, so they just stopped trying. It's like when my mom and dad died they just threw me and my brother to the wolves even tho we were still kids. I have to go see them for Christmas and I hate it. I don't wanna do anything. I hate Christmas bc my mom and dad aren't here anymore. I also can't afford gifts, so I really don't wanna go if I can't bring anything. An
regret not ending it before school ended
i made plans to kms at the end of alevels. my mental health was just screwed to shit, constantly paranoid about people after years of being told about what people said before my back, almost being raped by a guy, failing grades and other shit. got to where i felt i had literally no one in my life except people on line (even tho i did have a few friends irl), who eventually ended up grooming me and making me feel even worse.
decided that i was gonna overdose and that for my last year id do as much stuff for myself as i could. i finished games and shows that id lost all energy for, tried almost every drug on darkweb markets and tried spending more time with my family until i ended up getting
I’m kinda just waiting to die
Hey everybody, I’m kinda just here to vent about my not so great life. Fort starters I’m twenty years old and live with my family. We’re pretty well off financially and my parents love me well enough. Unfortunately I was born with some pretty bad genetics. My face is prone to acne, which as you can imagine makes dating and love basically impossible lol. Oh and I can’t off myself cause God will just send me to hell. Isn’t he just terrific? (I’m being sarcastic here). So I’m kinda just coping with my loneliness, waiting for my inevitable end. I guess I’m thankful that I’m not immortal. I don’t wanna live here more than I need too. Anyway have a nice day ya’ll!
Had to put my cat down. Tw animal death/grief
My cat died of a genetic kidney thing and I'm so scared his siblings have it too. We're taking them to the vet to get checkups, but we have to space it out so it's affordable. I'm so anxious and sad my heart hurts.
uni group projects are going to fking kill me
Look, university is hard. I just started my first sem and am already crazy overwhelmed by how much I have to complete in such little time. BUT DO NOT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON GROUP PROJECTS IN UNI. It's like no one cares?? I've been in three group projects so far and everyone is fucking dogshit. Swear to god. I HAD TO PICK UP THE SLACK EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. And I'm not even that much of a pushover?? It's as if these overgrown monkeys think its ok to let loose because its not an individual assignment BUT HELLOOOO. ITS CALLED A GROUP. PROJECT. G-R-O-U-P. CAN YOU READ??
My first group project had 4 people. 4 waste of spaces. We had to submit a report which was easy enough, until you realise eve
some people are just beyond saving tbh
i truly believe god puts us here to look out for each other, like we’re all on this ship together. but some people have sailed so far into the dark that they don't even recognize the light anymore. i m talking about the fascists. the ones who reel at anything "different" or "foreign" because their hearts are just pure rot. they don't want peace, they want to hijack everything and make it as miserable as they are. you can't give a "second chance" to a virus that’s trying to kill the host. if you see that kind of hatred, you don't talk to it. you shut it down on sight. no regrets, no apologies. they chose to leave humanity behind a long time ago.
What are you doing?
Recently I’ve been feeling like you don’t care whenever I text you, or you barely text me at times. I feel like I’m the only one trying to keep good communication with you. You take so long to reply and open my messages as well as not texting me throughout the day at all. You know how much I like to hear about ur day or maybe just tiny little updates here and there but I can’t even do that. It’s making me feel like I don’t matter to you anymore. Today I’m not going to think too hard about it since I’m pretty sure you’re exhausted from the flight but it I see this happening it’s really gonna bother me since you can’t use the WiFi as an excuse anymore.
actually about to snap
currently bleeding money because of some absolute bs that wasn't even my fault. i’m so beyond irritated. i feel like i can’t even breathe without spending $100 and now this?? and then people have the nerve to ask why i’m in a bad mood... like sorry i’m not sunshine and rainbows while my bank account is screaming? i’m frustrated and i’m gonna be short with people for a bit. just let me be mad god.. fuck u
Why can't I stop being toxic? Am I even the toxic one?
My girlfriend and I love each other deeply (sometimes I doubt that, on both sides, but that's another story)
She gets jealous very easily, even told me to not give my coworkers a handshake for a greeting.
I contributed, wanting to make her happy.
A few weeks later we were outside and she saw her coworker (one she has been talking alot about lately), and gave him a handshake.
Kinda made me feel stupid ngl, and also jealous. Because why am I not allowed to do something she does? It's a handshake not a make out session yet she treated it as one with MY coworkers.
Currently she is sleeping next to me while I lay there awake. She picked me up from work and said to me that she decided to