January 2026
23 posts
January 2026
idk what to do
i've tried killing myself a month ago, and now it's like i wanna do it every single day for some reasons,,, when i did it i think i was in crisis (?) i had a rlly bad fight with my mom and sister i was like that's not happeninggg it's happened many times but that time in particular would have ruined my life but for real. so i took a knife and genuinely started butchering my shit in front of them, i almost hit an artery but they took the knife from me i tried to stab myself after that but they called an ambulance blah blah blah anywho. ive always had ideas of kms but religion was holding me back, now that i don't believe anymore what exactly holds me back? like idc anymore so i've had constan
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I don't know what to do
I've had many feelings bottled up for long enough. I think I've been attention seeking way too hard nowadays, always trying to make every conversation about me, or at least that's what I see, I just want people to notice my struggles.
I can't just fucking do something without showing it to someone, but not for a good healthy reason, but because I _crave_ validation and that makes me feel like I can't do or say anything without wanting people to tell me I did good or ANY kind of opinion on the things I do.
I find myself to be mediocre at everything I do, but I don't even know if it's perfectionism or just low self-esteem at this point anymore.
Anyways that's it, just something I needed to
hi oops isk what to say here
honestly i dont even lnow where to start rhis is so pathetic but every day i wake up and pray i die nothing entertains me anymore mu life isnt that boring but with my depression it really makes it boring i dont know im so alone though im in a friend group i just wish i died i really do i wouldnt mind dying tonight or tomorrow or getting ran over i accepted the fact that ill die one day i wish it was sooner
Discord reacts are so unhealthy
I turned them off because i got addicted to that small dopamine rush they give you. man im all fucked up, i hate my brain
College - fuck it
I’m fuckijg tired of college, i’m emotionless, i want to sleep for a week straight and play rain world to forget about all of it-l. But no..
I get it- college is required but i’ve had trauma with educatioj!!
So ye- emotionless amd dead inside- idk if its normal.
Uhhhh yeahhh me again
its me again, if this is flooding im sorry but i really feel like shit
i truly believe im not meant to be happy at this point, it has never been something in the table for me
i want to be sick, i want to get hurt, i want to be pitied and comforted, i want the people i know to read this, i want there to be no way back
everything ive done has lead to this, my insecurity has lead me here. i dont talk to people from school anymore, i just got my degree today and i fear that is whats going to happen with my university friends now. i want to close all my accounts and leave every single one of the people i know behind. wondering if i died, if the little pest finally decided to end it all
really should've killed myself at seventeen
i'm twenty two now and i feel unlovable as shit.
my best friend told me he's my ride or die but we haven't been able to talk a lot. i know he has his own life buy every day i'm more fearful about being alone once again
i'm never able to keep friends for more than three years, it's desperating. i fear everyone i've surrounded myself hates me. i hate feeling like everyone else is insincere but i don't know what to do anymore, i'm so scared of speaking on the groupchats i have, i'm horrified everytime i type, i'm scared that people are only putting up with me instead of actually liking me and wanting me to be there.
the friends i have have already told me evrything is fine but i really
I hate my orchestra conductor
He decided to stop the entire orchestra, point is little white baton at my face and yell at me for playing two measures wrong
He never yells at anyone else like this. I swear it’s because I’m a woman.
just rage again a dumb admin
tu n'es qu'une pauvre conne en manque de pouvoir qui jouit de pouvoir sanctionner quelqu'un. Si ce n'étais pas le cas tu aurais juste accepter que je supprimes ma publication. Tu dois vraiment avoir une vie de merde.
Nonsensical rant about death, the world, and life
People will not share the same thoughts as I do, but despite the amount of suffering, I carry the excitement to see the raw world with my own view. I have been too worried of death despite having a young age, just from watching the reality of my parent’s faces growing weathered, and only seeing remnants of my grandmother’s existence (her clothing, pictures, diaries) when I watched her scold me, and laugh until tears prickled at the corners of her eyes, from just a year ago
Come to think about it, I believe we do remember the best parts of someone once they have died, my grandmother often scolded me until my father had to defend me, saying that “it is still morning time” and I “have school
Sad, upset, and angry
I've been trying to distance myself from American political news for obvious reasons but everything I'm hearing on the news makes me sad. I want to get a one way ticket to another country and work there and hunker down until the next election, but I can't because I'm in school. I'm afraid of being next and I don't even know if I will see the light of day in three years.
I hate everybody
I wish all those who used to be my friends and no longer is would just disappear. I wish the worst upon them for hurting me. I can't move on quietly. I always need to make a big deal out of everything before I continue forward with life. I'm worried too much venting could make my partner mad at me and leave me too so im just venting wherever and to whoever. I wish I was normal. No clue why everyone's so stupid
I hate my brother
I hate my brother, I hate him, I hate him, I hate him, I hope I never have to see him again why does he keep going back to jail he's such a fucking asshole he doesn't care I hate him so much
Schools fucking retarded and people r fucking gross
I went to school like after taking a whole fucking month holiday . What the actual fuck is wrong with students ? These lizard like assholes who keep running here and there and screaming , who actually r like " wanna be gangsters " legit fucking score so fucking good and it fucks my brain . Every single time I go to school , it's hell fucking hell and I come crying home cuz idk what else to do cuz I'm asking a fucking retard myself. On top of that I fucking feel fucking ugly. I thought I was improving in this self love thingy and fuck it , it all went to square one when I saw those giggling pretty girls talking with their whole gang. What makes it worse is that my ex, he's hot, and so I hear
I feel so useless at my 23's
I'll have some grammatical and orthographic mistakes since English is not my first language, but I'm desperate to "talk" about this with someone else that're not my friends.
I turned 23 recently, and I feel like I've not done anything in my life, like yeah I "work" in the family business, but I don't do like the big thing, and I'm often tired and demotivated to do anything, and I know I should at least try and begin with something, but the more I think about task I need to complete, the more is the urge to procrastinate, and I hate this feeling.
I've been feeling like this for a long time, and I don't know what to do about it, I know I'm lazy and I know I'm useless and I don't know how
Does anyone else feel this way?
I genuinely feel like the only one going through this rn is, with people around me. I’m a just a teenage girl in highschool and literally everything feel so heavy. Which honestly I think everyone has thst own issues ofc but these days I feel so alone, despite me having a rlly great bond with my family and like 1 or 2 friends I just feel alone all the time and everyone’s life is moving forward while mine is going backwards. I had lots breakups but I never knew friendship breakups would hurt so fucking bad abd the worst part is I have see the ppl I used to love and talk to every single day and watch them being with their other friends while I sit alone all the time. At least I don’t have to se
I'm just a bit jealous of my flatmate
He's been inviting his gals or what'evs and He always flirts with them, I know I'm not his gf or anything but it kinda is a bit... making me jealous for some reason.
maybe it's the constant laughter or I just don't get those steam invites anymore from him.
ugh ugh ugh
i hate having social anxiety i hate how i was homeschooled my whole life cause now its so hard for me to get myself out there and make new friends. The only friends that i have suck and are mean to me and we rarely talk anymore. I don’t know how I’m going to survive on my own. I feel so left out and falling behind in life. Kids my age are going out, making memories and having fun. I’m just in my room everyday, doomscrolling with no one to talk to. And when i do try to talk to someone, I’m always ignored and never acknowledged at all. It hurts I’m so tired of this.
Hi, I just wanted to wish
happy new year to everyone, especially u