okay so lately ive been feeling like ive hit rock bottom while im also through the roof. idk how to explain it and thats lowk the best i can do to explain it😭 anyways, i fear my body image has gotten slightly worse instead of better but i cant stop binge eating like what!! and im also too unmotivated to do anything ab it too💔 like i cant stop comparing how i look or how i do things with other ppl. i would literally go insane or wtv whenever i see a genuinely good looking person in my fyp. im that seriously insecure. i also get really jealous when ppl are just naturally good at the shit i actually have to work hard on, like damn bro. i dont know whats wrong with me. sometimes i feel like im b

most of my friends are getting asked out, guys sliding into their DMs or just simply getting compliments from total strangers on the street while I only get to listen to their stories and wonder when will it be my turn :') I feel so ugly right now I could totally rip my face off I've always felt pretty, or at the very least not hideously bad looking. But I'm having second thoughts, maybe I'm absolutely delusional and have overestimated how I look? I can see every flaw right now, especially my brows and my eyes. My mom is really straight forward and honest with her words, and I haven't heard her say that I look pretty in a long time. On the contrary, she's been complimenting my friends, s

Thinking about how I'm going to find the courage to try and lose weight next year, I'm overweight for my height, I need to lose at least 40kg.

Idk if it’s just me, but lately it feels like my whole body is begging for a long, long sleep. Not a nap Not 8 hours. I’m talking like disappearing into a blanket for 3 months and waking up when life is normal It’s not even that anything HUGE is happening. It’s just… everything. The tiny stresses, the overthinking, the constant , My brain just feels heavy

It's crazy that you have to live with whatever mental illness you have and it stays with you forever. You get better for some time but mostly it keeps coming back again n again then you realise that you are this person and you will always have to deal with it