i've tried killing myself a month ago, and now it's like i wanna do it every single day for some reasons,,, when i did it i think i was in crisis (?) i had a rlly bad fight with my mom and sister i was like that's not happeninggg it's happened many times but that time in particular would have ruined my life but for real. so i took a knife and genuinely started butchering my shit in front of them, i almost hit an artery but they took the knife from me i tried to stab myself after that but they called an ambulance blah blah blah anywho. ive always had ideas of kms but religion was holding me back, now that i don't believe anymore what exactly holds me back? like idc anymore so i've had constan
honestly i dont even lnow where to start rhis is so pathetic but every day i wake up and pray i die nothing entertains me anymore mu life isnt that boring but with my depression it really makes it boring i dont know im so alone though im in a friend group i just wish i died i really do i wouldnt mind dying tonight or tomorrow or getting ran over i accepted the fact that ill die one day i wish it was sooner
I’m fuckijg tired of college, i’m emotionless, i want to sleep for a week straight and play rain world to forget about all of it-l. But no..
I get it- college is required but i’ve had trauma with educatioj!!
So ye- emotionless amd dead inside- idk if its normal.
its me again, if this is flooding im sorry but i really feel like shit
i truly believe im not meant to be happy at this point, it has never been something in the table for me
i want to be sick, i want to get hurt, i want to be pitied and comforted, i want the people i know to read this, i want there to be no way back
everything ive done has lead to this, my insecurity has lead me here. i dont talk to people from school anymore, i just got my degree today and i fear that is whats going to happen with my university friends now. i want to close all my accounts and leave every single one of the people i know behind. wondering if i died, if the little pest finally decided to end it all
i'm twenty two now and i feel unlovable as shit.
my best friend told me he's my ride or die but we haven't been able to talk a lot. i know he has his own life buy every day i'm more fearful about being alone once again
i'm never able to keep friends for more than three years, it's desperating. i fear everyone i've surrounded myself hates me. i hate feeling like everyone else is insincere but i don't know what to do anymore, i'm so scared of speaking on the groupchats i have, i'm horrified everytime i type, i'm scared that people are only putting up with me instead of actually liking me and wanting me to be there.
the friends i have have already told me evrything is fine but i really
He decided to stop the entire orchestra, point is little white baton at my face and yell at me for playing two measures wrong
He never yells at anyone else like this. I swear it’s because I’m a woman.
BRO MY LIFE RNN IS LIKE SUPER INTERESTING 😆😆😘😘LIKE DEPRESSION🫦🫦👏🏻🤟🏻🤤GIVE NE SOME MORE !!🥴🤢🤮INSECURITY? I WANT IT MORE ARGH ITS SO GOOD😔😜😜 STRESSS?? HECK YEAH I LIVE FOR IT 🫶🏻🫶🏻🤯🥺🤮😔🤤🤤 PROCRASTION?? FUCK YEAH I WANT MORE 😖😩😩😘😘😘🫶🏻🫦🤮CRYING EVEERY DAMN NIGHT? HEACK YEAH I CANT STOP ITS SO FUNN! 🤣🤣😛🤟🏻🤢😩😩HAVING 0 FUCKING EMOTIONAL SUPPORT 🫦AAH IT MAKES ME CUM 🫶🏻😜🥴😘😘SELH HARM ? 🙀😽😱🥳🤩🤩BEST THING TO DO!!! 🥳😜🤩NOT BEING ABLE TO COMMUNICATE ENOUGH WITH PEOPLE?? DAMN THATS LIKE THE BEST THING🥴🤢🤮🤮😖😆😘😘UGLINESS?? FUCJ YEAH I LOVE JTT🤟🏻🥴🫶🏻😽😱I LOVE NY LIFE SO MUCH !!!😆😜
BRO MEETING NEW GUYS(MEN AND BOYS) MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I SHOULD JUST SUICIDE 🤣😩🤟🏻🤩😛🤪CUZ ITS SO FUNN!😽🤮😱🌀😖🥳 SO I MET THIS GUY 6 MONTHS AGO ONLI
So yeah, I think this is it. I’ve tried to ‘hang in there’ but it’s not worth it anymore. It’s the same shit every day. I know I should just stop procrastinating and end it all right now but I guess I like venting. There really is no hope is there? I know God is gonna throw me in hell after tonight but I guess that’s just life. It was never meant for me
i wish i didnt fail my fucking suicide attempt when i was 10 maybe my parents would take me fucking serious for once but no now im a coward because if i attempt i might fail again or end up worse. i have no friends, i have no one talk to, no meaningful connections. people see me as this friendly, impulsive person but i got no fucking friends at all. i'm "fun" to be around but apparently no one cares for that and would ditch me in a heartbeat. i'm not on bad terms with anyone but people never just see me as a friend or take me seriously at all. i'm so Fucking pissed off. i'm not even a shy person that let people walk over me. so i dont get why people treat me like this maybe i just gotta fuck
Country and world suck ass + autistic + ocd + frequent panic attacks + abusive family + can't afford therapy and I'm pretty sure it wouldn't even work + ghosted my online friends because I didn't want to burden them with my problems and as far as I can tell they are doing well without me + AI is poisoning the world + climate change = killing myself is the better option
I hate everything, this system is a plot to make us as miserable possible. I just turned 18 and look at the shit that's happening, we will soon experience multiple financial crisis. I should have killed myself 3 years ago but I foolishly thought "Oh maybe it will get better.." no it will not. Hell I wish I was brave enough to jump out of the window.
i feel like i seriously cant go on much longer but id feel like a piece of shit if i just fucking did it and left my parents and family to suffer, i want to at least try to die somewhat happy. i dont know how to do that though, i bearly have enough money to pay for any funeral costs or give compensation when im gone, i cant think of anything to do to try and make my last tolerable let alone enjoyable, and idk how im supposed to die without it being painful as fuck. i always thought some combo of xans, alchohol and heroin would work great by knocking me out and everything so that i wouldnt have to wake up but apparently its inconsistent or painful as shit and whatever. fucking bullshit
Hey everybody, I’m kinda just here to vent about my not so great life. Fort starters I’m twenty years old and live with my family. We’re pretty well off financially and my parents love me well enough. Unfortunately I was born with some pretty bad genetics. My face is prone to acne, which as you can imagine makes dating and love basically impossible lol. Oh and I can’t off myself cause God will just send me to hell. Isn’t he just terrific? (I’m being sarcastic here). So I’m kinda just coping with my loneliness, waiting for my inevitable end. I guess I’m thankful that I’m not immortal. I don’t wanna live here more than I need too. Anyway have a nice day ya’ll!
It's not fucking funny that you pretend to put little guns to your head and say you're about to kill yourself. Unless you have spent nights crying ove how terrified you are of actually ending it, how much you want to be gone, how every fucking little things triggers a part of your brain saying I'm going to slit my wrists and bleed out, then you don't understand and do not get to say those things. Because people who understand the gravity and pain do not scream it out as a joke; it's a little sign to their closest people, a pissed off comment, a joke masking the real emotion. SO SHUT THE FUCK UP
Lately I feel like this depression just drops on me out of nowhere, and when it does, I completely shut down. I stop talking, stop replying, stop everything… even though deep down all I want is for someone to actually notice and listen. Its like my silence is screaming, but nobody hears anything except me, and that just pushes me deeper into the same dark place.
I just want to feel normal for once. Just one day where my mind isn’t running laps around itself for no reason. One day where I don’t feel like I’m fighting my own head.
Tired of always being first one to reach out. I stopped texting first a week ago just to see what would happen, and literally zero people have checked on me. It’s not like I don’t have friends but I’m apparently not a priority to any of them.
I saw someone while at the vending machines today. They looked eerily similar to my last bf, John. (I'm struggling to get over John). I nearly thought they were them and thought they had come to my school to visit me, but when they turned around I realized it wasn't them and my heart just dropped. I miss them sm even though they led me on and cheated on me when we were together. I remember telling his secret gf that he was cheating on her during their relationship (this is right after we finally cut things off and agreed not to casually hu anymore). Only for her to tell him that I told her and both of them getting mad at me since I "attempted to ruin their relationship". Ngl any normal, dec
I genuinely wished I killed myself Thanksgiving 2 years ago. I was so miserable back then, I had gotten academic suspension from my college, my bf broke up with my a month before, my parents hated me since I was failing my classes. Yet, in some pathetic way it was slightly better because I could atleast say I went to a prestigious school and didn't live with my parents (like I do now). I hadn't found out that my ex-bf (who I'd go on to have an on-again off again situationship for the next 1.5 years) was actually cheating on me during the last 4 months of our relationship, with his secret gf (that he's still dating now and was still dating during while we were hu after we brokeup). I swear to