I've had many feelings bottled up for long enough. I think I've been attention seeking way too hard nowadays, always trying to make every conversation about me, or at least that's what I see, I just want people to notice my struggles. I can't just fucking do something without showing it to someone, but not for a good healthy reason, but because I crave validation and that makes me feel like I can't do or say anything without wanting people to tell me I did good or ANY kind of opinion on the things I do. I find myself to be mediocre at everything I do, but I don't even know if it's perfectionism or just low self-esteem at this point anymore. Anyways that's it, just something I needed to say before it made me go crazy