She has constantly humiliated me by insisting my friends don't care about me, saying none of my friends are "true" friends and I should just stop talking to them since they don't care about me. She permanently damaged my social skills during my formative years by only allowing me to be friends with those she "approved" of. I wasn't able to properly develop friendships while @my original college because I didn't gain the fundamental social skills to actually talk + connect with people my own age during my adolescence. At best, I'd have the occasional conversation with people in my classes, but I never fully connected enough to form actual friendships. I somehow managed to hu with people and go on a few dates (something I could never imagine during my adolescence) While I was at my original university, I even managed to get my first ever boyfriend, Pedro (fake name for the sake of privacy, but so it's easier to keep track of the story I'm explaining). Pedro was the FIRST person to ever have a crush on me. I was genuinely shocked that someone could develop a crush on ME since I was pretty weird + ugly girl from 6th-11th grade, so I accepted that guys weren't interested in me. I found out after we took an edible together and we got into a fight, because I left for a tiny bit to talk to a casual situationship to see what's up. After talking to my situationship for 4-10 min. I came to the realization that I didn't want to spend time w/them at ALL. I went back to hang out with Pedro @his dorm, but he wasn't there. He went outside and was upset since I had chosen to "abandon" him just to talk to my situationship. I tried texting Pedro and we were just high as FUCK trying to meet up I wanted to tell him that I'd rather spend time with him, because I want to spend time with a friend. (plus I wanted to be with someone while I lowkey was tripping out due to the edible). When I met him outside, I was energetic, excited because of the edible setting in and Pedro made me feel safe even as the edible's sunk in more. It was getting super strong and I got slightly anxious, but I was extremely happy, energetic once we met up. I was excited and my mind was immediately rushing about what to talk to him about. I could barely focus on my surrounding and the vibe at the time....Pedro stayed quiet and did some heavy breathing as I excitedly yapped on. Then I noticed that his anger, he was slowly, breathing heavily and his eyes started to slightly tear up. I asked him "What's wrong? Why are you upset?". I initially thought the edible was hitting Pedro hard, making him feel stuff more dramatically. Ik he was annoyed, but I just thought the edible was overexaggerating his feelings. My thoughts finally slowed, and I realized how stupid it was to leave my friend. I apologized, but he was still upset and quietly sat down, hiding his face as he began to cry. It made me freak out because Ik I was a mega ********-head to him. I apologized profusely and admitted I made a stupid mistake & my situationship isn't as important as our friendship. He didn't look my way and I tried to make eye contact, so he'd know I was meant it. I told him to look at me, but he turned away from my direction and was still hiding your face. I was quiet for a bit, then I said "Okay I'm sorry. I'm a complete fucking idiot. You have every right to be mad @ me for ditching you. I wanna talk this out because I hate seeing you upset,". He slowly looked up at me,while breathing steadily and heavily, his eyes were as red as a blooming Bolivian fuchsia with garnet twinkling in the inner corner of his eyes. Then it hit me like a fucking big ass Fire truck. "Wait you liked..me..?" I asked. "YES, of course I did. How could you not see it? It was so obvious this entire time!" he shouted. "But that was because I never had a fucking chance with you. I should have listened to Juan & Daniel when they said you weren't interested in me," as he broke down, lamenting and quietly angerily sobbing.