Sometimes I hate my brother, but I love my big brother. He's been a role model for me my whole life, we've played Minecraft on split screen, he's chased me after I stole his toys, he's let me sit in his room while he plays on his Xbox before I annoy him and kick him out, I've crushed on his friends and he's noticed, I've studied with him at the kitchen table, EVERYTHING. But after he moved out around 3 years back after graduating, I can't help but feel that I annoy him. I secretly got Instagram, and I added him, sending him reels, and just wanting to talk sometimes since he's my brother. But he would barely reply. Then he unadded me. As if I'm not his little sister that he doesn't live with. And then whenever he comes over back to my house, he's the center of attention and suddenly everything I do is nagging them. I get sent away. They frown at me, but smile at him. I tell them about a weird interest of mine, they mock me. He tells them about a interest of his, they approve and smile. My brother never got straight A's, they were fine with it. As soon as I get barely an 80, though? I'm getting yelled at and forced to have extra study time. They want me to get into college and be full-ride with scholarships. Him? They didn't force him. I have chronic depression and anxiety. He has severe social anxiety. He still got treated better. He's always favorited. We're never equal. I miss the brother that I used to cut grass with. I miss the brother that would sneak food with me. I miss the brother that actually seemed to care about me.