I fucked up as a girlfriend. my bf of 2yrs introduced me to his brothers for the first time we went to the nightclub I was super excited and nervous to meet them, we had a drink before we went in and drank some more there we got there around 11:30pm ish. I had an energy drink before i left the house I drank a drink my bf made me which was cran-vodka and this canned drink but I dont remember if I had drank the entire thing and then they ordered me a coke and rum and I also dont remember finishing that. the last thing I remember was talking to the brothers gf she was super nice and sweet and asked that we do a double date which was around 2:47am the nightclub normally ends around 3:30am I have zero recollection of that no memories of what happened next thing you know im back in my room I don't remember coming back home or how I got home I feel like I blacked out. he told me what happened and im super embarrassed. he said I kept trying to run away from him and I said that his brothers gf wanted to get with us but thats not what was said I don't know why my mind even went there I feel so gross and I was upset that I didn't believe him and his brother watched me act like that he said I was publicly screaming at him to not touch me I dont recall that either he thinks im making an excuse but I know there isnt one. im really sorry and I have no idea what to do or how to recover from this I caused them so much hurt he will never let me near his family ever again and potentially end things with me by the looks of it. I had a problem with drinking where I would binge drink every night and I stopped and only drank when we saw each other if this means giving up drinking I will I even told him I would personally apologize to them thats only if they let me I will not force anything onto them. I have a feeling that my actions were caused because we had an argument 2 weeks ago prior to this and drinking the alcohol which I felt like wasn't a lot I felt like I would've known if I was drunk if I had gotten the spins but I didnt get any of that I seriously have no idea what to do what he saw was me it scares me that I have no memory of it I would never cause any action of embarrassment like this