its sometimes really hits that ur "friends" rly dont care when ur in the dumps and can disappear for days but have absolute fucking nobody reach out or even have to talk to when ur gone. my best friend, at least who i thought, just got in a relationship and completely has left me in the dark and i dont wna be a burden so now i legitimately got nobody. sometimes i say fuck it and go to the movies alone and eat alone bc idm being ALONE, its when LONELINESS hits is when it starts to feel dreadful.