I really dislike Christmas, not bc of the meaning or anything like that. I lost my mom at 12 and my dad at 17, been on my own since. I'm 20 now, and it's really hard to stay above water with no parents, and very little support from either sides of my family. It's like once my parents died, I didn't have anything attaching me to the others, so they just stopped trying. It's like when my mom and dad died they just threw me and my brother to the wolves even tho we were still kids. I have to go see them for Christmas and I hate it. I don't wanna do anything. I hate Christmas bc my mom and dad aren't here anymore. I also can't afford gifts, so I really don't wanna go if I can't bring anything. And I need to go to the store but everything is closed bc of Christmas. I really do dislike Christmas it's not fun or joyful for me it's painful and dark and I have to deal with people who don't even really like me. Anyways if anyone read this long ass post thank u sm.