i wish i didnt fail my fucking suicide attempt when i was 10 maybe my parents would take me fucking serious for once but no now im a coward because if i attempt i might fail again or end up worse. i have no friends, i have no one talk to, no meaningful connections. people see me as this friendly, impulsive person but i got no fucking friends at all. i'm "fun" to be around but apparently no one cares for that and would ditch me in a heartbeat. i'm not on bad terms with anyone but people never just see me as a friend or take me seriously at all. i'm so Fucking pissed off. i'm not even a shy person that let people walk over me. so i dont get why people treat me like this maybe i just gotta fucking change i gotta kill myself or something